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Signs

In my journey into meditation and into mindfulness, I have come to be aware of signs in my life.  Daily little synchronicities, coincidences and signs are everywhere and I feel they are our guides’ way of pointing us in the right direction, or even simply letting us know that they’re there for us.

ButterfliesI have come to pay attention to a wayward butterfly crossing my path, or a dragonfly darting around me when there are no others.  I notice cloud formations that have meaning to me.  And I notice little things in my life that tell me those I love who are on the other side, are reminding me that they’re with me.

Humans become far too involved in day-to-day living, to the point of ignoring what is truly important on this planet.  We begin to base our lives, our hearts, our direction and our decisions on unimportant minutia.  I mean, seriously, do you really want to stay angry at the inane customer service agent on the phone to the point it stops you from experiencing something beautiful, or from experiencing messages and direction from your angels and guides.  You know, your anger or grief will do that.  dove cloudAnd our angels, guides and loved ones on the other side cannot help us unless we ask for their help and unless we listen for them.

Some of the best times to listen are when you surrender yourself totally to nature. Sitting in nature, breathing in fresh air and enjoying all that is around you is not only calming but it allows you to connect with the planet and thus, connect with the help and love that surrounds you.  When you’re angry, when you’re not in the moment, you miss a lot of the beauty that is your gift from earth.

Signs generally have meaning only to you. The image in this post of the clouds is an example.  I’ve recently lost someone who I loved dearly, who was like a second mother to me.  My heart has been hurting since her passing in May.  In two visits to her home in SW Florida, I have seen a few signs that tell me she’s with  me in spirit.  On the trip home the first time, I was feeling particularly lost and then I saw this cloud which to me, is an amazing bird. I knew that I was not alone in my feelings.

On another trip, I realized that she was sending me iris!  I came upon a cup that I was compelled to buy and now I know why.  Iris cupShe loved Iris!

And then I saw iris in many other places (note the bedspread below).

So, my message today is to not ever let these special moments go unnoticed.  They are there for your benefit and to help you with whatever you’re struggling with, be it grief, loss, love or any of the myriad of other of life’s struggles.

And then there are numbers.  But that’s for another post another day.

Iris

 

The past can be healing

I make every effort to live in the now.  It is generally not helpful to dwell in the past or to live for the future.  However, there are times that for me, visiting the past is very healing and revealing.

My mother and father passed away in 2012 and 2013.  While I loved them dearly, there are family friends who I have always felt incredibly close to, who I have always considered my ‘second parents’.  They have lived on the beach in Southwest Florida since 1959.  My Mom and Dad Bayfront 47Sepiaabsolute best memories of my Dad are there on that beach.  Perhaps it’s because this was before he became so judgmental.  Or perhaps it’s because I was so young that I never saw that side of him at that time.  However, in thinking back, that is when he seemed the most light-hearted and carefree.  My Mom was always perfect in my eyes so I can’t think of her in any situation where she wasn’t wonderful.

My Mom, Dad and my sisters and myself would journey to the home of my parents then-best friends a few times a year.  I find that at age 60, I am attached to that place, and to those memories more than anything else in my childhood.  Perhaps it’s because my parents are gone.  And perhaps it’s because half of my ‘second parents’ has recently died. I’m feeling more and more that it is the place that I’m now tied to.  As a child, I could never hold back the tears when it was time to leave, and as my husband has seen, I’ve not changed even now.  Our friend often comments on how every single time as a very small child, I was in the back seat, with tears in my eyes as we drove away.

I was born in Miami and then spent some years growing up in Alabama but I have never felt an attachment to any place I lived in Alabama.  I couldn’t wait to leave Alabama and did so Mom and Dad 7 Mile Bridge 47the moment I was able to. I find it interesting that I feel no ties to the home where I grew up yet feel tied to this one spot on our planet.  It’s where I feel the most grounded.  Am I the only one who feels this type of connection?

I’ve lived many places since then, and the last 20+ years have been here in South Florida.  I feel South Florida is where I am meant to be and have no plans to leave.

After I grew up and was on my own, I continued to spend a great deal of time on that beach with those wonderful people.  My husband knows and loves them as I do. We continue to go there at least once a month now, because we’ve seen that those we love who are of that age group are starting to leave us and we don’t want to miss a moment with them if we can help it.

I looked through some old pictures, hoping to find some pics of my dad surf fishing there, or relaxing or doing little projects with our friends.  But all I found were some from a trip he and my Mom made from Miami to Key West in 1947 right before they were married, which are embedded here.  One is at Bayfront Park in Key West and the other is on one of the many bridges between Miami and Key West.

Yes, this is an incredibly sentimental post today, but somehow, it just seems to feel right to share this.  My husband has always said since we were first together, that I’m his ‘Real Emotional Girl’ (a Randy Newman song).  I do indeed live from the heart and when one does that, it can leave one open to a lot of pain.  It’s just important to learn from it all. It seems today is one of those days that I wear the ‘Real Emotional Girl’ description proudly.

 

Mother Nature at her best

I feel so blessed to have spent a week by the sea.  It was perfect to wake every morning to dolphins in front of the beach front house, to turtles lazing in the early afternoon on the surface of the water briefly before diving again, to manatees drifting along at their own pace, to the first of the pelicans from up north, feasting on the small bait fish close to shore, to the ospreys showing off their freshly caught fish, and to the heartbeat of the sea in the form of steady, gentle surf action.Simple Peace

Left is a still and here is a small video sample (hopefully the link will work): 30 Seconds of Peace   No, there is nothing ‘about to happen’.  It is just this and nothing else.

This is renewal for me.  It brings me closer to nature and reminds me that we all need this planet, and the planet needs help.

This week has emphasized the importance of spending more time connected to nature. My priorities become clearer.  My meditations become far more meaningful and far more emotional.  I feel re-dedicated to my personal goals, which involve helping this planet and those who need the most help – the animals.

I feel very humble and amazingly blessed.

 

 

 

 

It’s official: Mercury IS in Retrograde

I knew it was coming.  I knew the 17th was the start of that dreaded period.  I’ve come to believe that when Mercury is in Retrograde, it affects lives.  Electronics and gadgets don’t work right.  Things just go askew in one’s life.  MercuryRetrogradeMercury is in retrograde until October 9th.  The last retrograde period, my very-capable, very-powerful laptop lost it.  The keyboard stopped working properly, and somehow in the process, the motherboard shorted in the area where the keyboard is controlled.  So we attempted to order a new mother board and keyboard.  None of them ever worked.  Thus I was forced to buy a new, powerful ‘desktop replacement’ laptop.  I need the power for graphics which is the main part of my ‘real job’.   Well, you can bet THAT wasn’t cheap and it definitely was NOT budgeted!  And then, there is the time it takes to transfer 1.5 TB in files and configure a new machine. I was out of commission for weeks.   Grrrrr…

So, I thought I’d be safe this time.  I’d already a few months ago, accidentally dropped my iPhone into water, retrieved it and had it successfully repaired.  Nothing can go wrong, I thought.   Wrongo!   Today I jumped in the car to run two deadline-sensitive errands.   I’d put it off, dreading the prospect of getting out in the out-of-control biker traffic for this weekend’s event.  I still had time, I reasoned!  I just planned to make my deposit by 1 PM when the bank closed, and I needed to drop off my sales tax reports at the post office by 1 ish.  I sat in the driver’s seat, pushed the button. CloseEncountersLIGHTS!  Everywhere were lights!  Clicks, bells, dings, flashing lights!  The seat moved up and back, the steering wheel moved back and forth, all on it’s own. It reminded me of the scene from ‘Close Encounters of the Third  Kind’.   Of course, the car wouldn’t start at all.  Everything inside was locked. What the hell????  Let me tell you, when you have a computer controlled car and when one thing goes south, it’s a nightmare!   Hello?  Mercury?  Why me?

I said to myself “Ok.  I’ve not ridden the scooter in a while so I’ll just use it.”  No way.  It wouldn’t start either.

My husband came home, removed the old battery from my car and headed to Sears.

With the deadlines, I knew I had to start walking.  Nothing like a stroll at high noon, in the sun in September in the sub-tropics and on a deadline.  My friend at the bank invited me in to cool off but I needed to finish my errands.  My friend, Tom, at a Sebago booth on Duval provided a frosty bottle of water.

My husband found someone at Sears willing to quickly help.  He came home, installed the new battery.  $173.60 gives us no more dings, clicks nor other anomalies. He picked me up as I was walking home and delivered me to air conditioning and took off to his golf game with his buddies.

Now, the lessons?   I realized as I embarked on my walk that this was a message, a sign if you will.  I’m very big on signs.  As I walked, I made every attempt to walk under every massive shade tree that I could.  That helped with the heat.  Then I saw the butterflies.  There were butterflies everywhere!  A few fluttered in front of my face for a short time. I remembered that our friend who was recently killed had a wonderful butterfly sculpture in her office. More signs!   Except for my soon-dripping clothing and hair, it was a great walk – at least until I got close to the obnoxious bikers. They took all the peace and beauty from the walk, but hey, I just got away from them as quickly as I could and once again, felt peaceful and grateful for the experience.

For those who have never paid attention to the entire Mercury in Retrograde phenomenon, there’s this from the Old Farmers Almanac“…Perhaps Mercury’s retrograde periods can cause our plans to go awry. However, this is an excellent time to reflect on the past. Intuition is high during these periods, and coincidences can be extraordinary.

“The planet Mercury rules communication, travel, contracts, automobiles, and such.  So, when Mercury is retrograde, remain flexible, allow time for extra travel, and avoid signing contracts. Review projects and plans at these times, but wait until Mercury is direct again to make any final decisions.”

For me, it appears that Mercury in retrograde results in failures and complications when it comes to mechanical items and electronics. However, I’m taking the advice from the almanac to heart, and reflecting, enjoying the coincidences and paying attention to my intuition.